I am still the same person.
I still do things for all the right reasons.
Only difference now is that i give you less control over my life.
But you know your way around me.

i don't know anything right now. i am so messed up. i have no one to turn to. family doesn't feel like family and home feels like prison. i cn't escape. my only choice is suicide. and i am too chicken to do that.
judgemental faces and wicked stares. i cn't take it. i cn't escape it. it sucked when my mum said u spilled on me. i trusted u.

DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
hey
^^
hows ronald?
xd
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
why'd u tell my mum..
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
huh?
wth!
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she told me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wad did u say
=.=
i*
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she said that u were right abt me. that my mum should be worried abt me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
oh god wtf?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she threw my phone. put me under hse arrest. screwed ronald and made me quit my job
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wtf la weh..
i didnt say anything also
i think im not that stupid to put myself into something like this.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
and jac laughed at me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
hmm
tough
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
tough understatement.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wad happened to make this all appear anyways?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she said it was u.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
it was me?
=.=
why is it me?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
thats why i don't know whether to trust u at all.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
huh..
erm
okay?
let me clearily that
i didnt say anything.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
not even to jac

DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
i said to jacq that i am worried for u.
dats all.
i dont know wad the fuck they twisted the story to.
but i mean
i dont take sides.
when have i ever when it came to your family?
if you think boycotting you was my plan. then...i guess so dont know me well enuff to noe i treat u and ur fam as my own.
i guess so= i guess you*
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i don't know anything right now. i am so messed up. i have no one to turn to. family doesn't feel like family and home feels like prison. i cn't escape. my only choice is suicide. and i am too chicken to do that.
judgemental faces and wicked stares. i cn't take it. i cn't escape it. it sucked when my mum said u spilled on me. i trusted u.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
fuck that!
do you believe dat?
if you do.
den i dont have anything to say.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
if i didnt trust u. would i say all this to u.
u have always been like a sister to me. more than jacq. thats why it sucked when my mother said that u had something to do with all this.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
you're mom
haih
i admit
that i did say something.
it wasnt even saying
i just asked
if she trusted you.
she said no
so i said..
if u dont trust her..
wad she does wont be a part of ur life anymore
and thats how i asked her to worry abt u
kinda la
i dont exactly remember the convo.
but thats how it went...
see its not like i said anything to make her check ur hp or anything!
i know she did because ur hp is gone and obviously she checked.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
obviously.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
i noe her too well.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i don't know what to do.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
im sorry if wad i said is wad caused this..but be well noted that jacq has been wrapping ur mom around doubts abt u
why did she suddenly throw away ur hp
wad did she find out?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
that i was looking for birth control pills.
she doesn't know i had sex last week. she thinks i'm planning on it.
she called me a slut. cheap. whore.
and jacq was laughing and had this smirk on her face.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well wtf were you doing having sex in the 1st place
i thought that was all by gones!
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
u know me. it happens. but this time i wasn't protected. so i freaked and went on a rampage for birth control pills
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wtf happened.
who?
with who.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
a guy i was dating in college. Nasser.
now thats history.
jacq told her abt sam.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
sam? who's sam
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
the minor i supposedly raped in the sauna.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
oh!
ok
i can understand ur position
i wish i could help
but i dont think it would do much
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
don't help.
i'm dealing.
i finally expressed emotions while chatting with u.
i stoned throughout the whole day. in denial. searching every nook for pieces of my phone.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
ur mom sold ur hp already
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
hoping that all this was just some fucked up dream
how do u know
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
she threw the sim off the balcony
erm
wel
dont spill
but
jacq and i were at ap.
and she told me
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she had no right.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well.
i dont noe la.
it was too late..
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i shouldn't have paid for astro.
i had to email my resignation and apologies to everyone in the office.
she doesn't know that.
she doesn't even care abt what i deal with.
all that matters to her is how my actions reflect on her.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well
for one
you cant blame her fully.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i am not. i just can't deal with this anymore.
since highschool.
how much do u think i cn take


i'll tell you how much.
no more.
i've just about had it.

Leave me be.

I can't deal with you anymore.

I don't want to.