Obviously ive given up the boob related titles..
due to pretty understandable reasons...
my current state rite now is misery thanks to being ignored by a loved one...
hmm.. its like this...
i'm kinda crushing on this person lets call this person A..
A.. is sometimes the sweetest and most cutest person in the world to me..
but once A's petsistas are around...
i'd be lucky if A evn looked my way...
We go out together and before tht A insists tht i wear decent clothings and shoes...
ok fine.. i subdue to A's wishes...
then when we go out... not only i am i not bothered by A...
But A treats me like i'm noone..
its my fault i guess tht i'm dissapointed with A..
its not like A claimed to like me nor care about me...
i just figured as much because we were friends..
i never thought i meant so lil to A...
I guess its karma...
One day of absolute happiness in exchange for unexplainable sadness the nxt time i go out with A...
I should stop hoping we could be anything more than friends...
i should also stop constantly thinking about A...
as matter of fact.. i really should avoid A entirely to stop the pain i'm feeling...
what does it matter to A if i'm in A's life or not...
obviously i mean nothing more than the doormat A walks over...
i only exist when im needed...
other than tht..
im nothing to A...
I hate that i love u A...
it pains me so much..
u cn't even imagine..
i bet u would laugh if u knew tht i loved u..
laugh in success over your conquest...
which is why i must nvr let u know...
i'm afraid after the laughter.. u will no longer be my friend..
things would be weird... and thts the last thing i want rite now..
especially not this year...