I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
Things that you can’t undo

If I had my way
I’d never get over you
Today is the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don’t wanna talk about it
‘cause I’m in love with you

You’re the only one
I’ll be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don’t wanna talk about it
‘cause I’m in love with you

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know, what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don’t wanna talk about it

And I don’t want to fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you
I don’t wanna talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you
I don’t wanna talk about it
‘cause I’m in love with you

I’m in love with you
Cause I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you
I’m in love with you

Everything I've done, I've done
Only for your love.
Everything I am, I am
In hopes your heart will move.

I know that you love someone else,
But while you're away,
I'll love you just as though our love
Would last till you are grey.

Till you and I are grey, my love,
And all our days are done,
I'll love you just as I do now;
Your heart's my only home.

Since I met you,
I've fallen in love with you
at least a hundred times
for a hundred different reasons.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I watch you doing something you enjoy,
something you're so involved in that
you're unaware of my presence.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
when I listen to you talk to other people.
Whether you're being interesting and funny
or warm and caring and genuinely concerned,
you have a way of making people feel better
with nothing more than words.
Sometimes I fall in love with you
just thinking about you,
remembering all the memories we've made...
falling in love for the first time,
staying in love during the rough times,
finding more to love about each other every day.
And whenever I think about
the wonderful things that lie ahead of us,
I fall totally and completely in love with you
all over again.

I would confess to you
A million reasons why
I feel this way for you,
Each and every day.

If I was brave,
Then I'd tell you why,
I'd tell you why I cried
And why I died, inside.

If I was truly happy,
I would run up to you
And hug you and kiss you
And I would TRY for you.

If I was true to myself,
Then I'd admit that
Letting you go is futile
But I can't admit that...

My quiet heart would confess
Every tiny little secret to you,
If it meant that you would love me,
If it meant that you would hold me...

But I could never do that
In fear of being pushed away...
I love you so much, but...
Maybe we should stay friends...

*

This is the quiet confession
Of a heart, burdened with love
And maybe it's because I love you
That I have to let you go...

What do u do when the person you love gets bck together with the person who scorned them...
and neglects u just to be with the very same person tht left u to put her broken heart back together piece by piece...
i dont know if anyones understands what i'm feeling rite now...
i dont even understand what im feeling..
its a mixture of absolute frustration with sadness and misery with a pinch of neglect and a dash of bitterness...
its a good thing i had enough sense to not hang out with them today..
the same girl tht shattered her hear in to a million pieces...
she chooses tht girl ovr me..
love truly is blinding..
she is in love with tht girl..
and im miserably in love with her...
why..
why this...
why did this hv to happen...
god...
i know u dont condone lesbianism which is probably why my hopes were doomed from the get go..
Oh sweet lady misery...
thy art my companion...
huhu...
sobs sobs...


nth left to say...
just miserable beyond words...
cnt even cover it...
i want to bleady well scream BLOODY MARY!!!
huhu~~

sad sad...
I need JMC...
huhu...

its hard not to seem desperate when u are so smitten with someone..
being absolutely in love and trying to deny it, is an absolute waste of time..
I am in love...
but i must deny it from the one i love....
i think abt her every second of every day..
i am forever missing the scent of her...
i close my eyes and hope to see her in front of me..
but its all fool's hope...
because being her friend...
i know exactly what goes on in her mind..
who is on her mind constantly...
and who isn't...
i miss her so much sometimes.. i cnt even breathe when i think abt her...
i try not to think abt her but i some how always hv a reason to..
i hate tht i love her so...
shes got such a hold on me and she doesnt even know it...
she made me promise to become a better person...
for her...
i'm willing to do anything..
no matter all the sacrifices i'll have to make..
a friend asked me...
"what if after all the changes.. her feelings for me stay the same"
i said...
i guess i'll just hv to live with tht because love cn't be forced...
as long as i cn love her in secret... i'm happy...
i won't say it wouldnt hurt me..
of course it would..
but theres nothing i cn do abt it...
thts true love...
loving someone despite all odds...
even spiritual odds and society...



never thought i would end up being BI..
men are the only ones to be blamed for this...
Ass holes...