its amazing how things just happen overnite...
overnite i lost my friends, family and 'super powers"
i feel like how Superman felt when Lex stabbed him with kryptonite leaving a huge piece inside...
weak helpless and defeated....
but just like Superman...
i shall prevail...
who cares tht my mum and grandmum treat me as though i'm an inanimate object that cn be throwned from one end to the other..
who cares that the person i cared for so much pushed me away as though i was diseased...
who cares that those i took as my friends made my worst nitemare a reality...
by proving how stupid i was to put my trust and heart in their hands..
who cares that everyone knows that i made one helluva blunder that not only affected me but all those around me...
come to think of it...
i honestly cn't blame them for not wanting to be around me anymore...
they were better off...
all i brought was misfortune...
i dont want to incur on anyone's life...
i just want to live mine the best way i know how...
its ok if they don't want to be friends with me anymore..
i'll live...
no doubt it sucks...
and i'll miss them but who am i...
like she said...
she doesn't need me a thousand times more then i dont need her...
little does she know that i only said that to convince myself...
it saddens me though that they would condemn me for the things that my mother said to them..
is any of it really my fault?
i never put the blame on them...
i was just frustrated because they weren't there...
i was alone at the lowes point of my life...
u are mad that people know abt this issue...
one question...
how would they have known if u didn't tell them...
i only contacted one person but u told everyone else..
so why be ashamed now..
u brought it upon urself and me..
thanks anyways..
because u made me realize what i really should care about and what really matters..
u were never the friend i needed u to be... not only to me but to many others...
but there's no point pointing fingers now...
there is no right and wrong...
i don't know how our issue brought up so many other issues but...
its over..
we aren't friends anymore... and i don't think we ever will be...
but the memories will stay and at least we'll have that...
no goodbyes... just have a nice life..
and with this...
i close this chapter of my life with a seal..
*only to be opened 20 years later*
*to laugh over*
=)

*flips page....*




heloo....
=p
no longer a bisexual...
just trying to figure out a lotta other things...
and putting FOCUS on exams...
thats my priority now....
my future...
wish me luck...
=)