Stef.Me.Sunway.Cab.

Well.......


Lets just say... That nothing beats a day with

your best friend, smoking up with a caramel macchiato

by our side and plenty of goss to last us a lifetime!


Almost forgot our MAJOR camwhore session

at the back seat of a very very all rounding brown

cabbie... hehe!


Not forgetting as well...

the LESBIAN DRAMA we had to put on to

shake off a very stalk-ish admirer!

























That day was exactly what i needed!

I had SO much FUN!

Felt old.. BUT in an AWESOME sense..

If growing older means i get to have more

AWESOME moments like that with my

besties then BRING IT!



I am so grateful that we've managed to be BFF's for like 4yrs now!

LOVES STEF!

Cheers to US and many more moments like these!

next in line.....


*sinister laughs*

Booze and smoke session at the Sheraton!

hehehe!

Sheraton is just a figure of speech... hehe!

WooTS!


Planning under way~

heehee...


p/s : My phone sucks... so the pics that i took can't be uploaded... farkness...

Kissing his lips with you mind...


Comparisons are easily turned
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
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Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
stay....

Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
joanne, do me a favour. contact ahmed and get nasser's num for me/
Lex says:
do YOU A FAVOUR?
you in the office?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
no. forcefully made to quit my job.
Lex says:
by your mother i presume
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
right on.
Lex says:
how in the world she got my number
i bet you knew she called me
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she did what
Lex says:
SHE FUCKING CALLED ME
AND SCREWED ME
so you can tell how fucking pissed i was yesterday morning
then i couldnt get you on your phone
and you werent at work
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she threw my phone off the building!
i'm under hse arrest!
she took away my keys
Lex says:
how did she get MY NUMBER
you TOLD her about the backup plan you had in mine
*mind
and you didnt tell me nuts. i lied to her i guess it didnt tally with your story
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
out of panic. i told her. but it did tally.
Lex says:
she said i liedddddd to herrrrrr
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i'm sorry.
Lex says:
i didnt know what time you left
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
really. i had no idea.
Lex says:
she asked where we went etc
how in the fucking world did she get my number
and she was like "STAY AWAY FROM ANYSHA"
"YOU HEAR ME"
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she took my phone from me whilst i was sleeping.
Lex says:
so what did she find out that threw her in such a rage
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
that i had sex. my brown nosing sister told her to check up on me. so she took my phone while i was sleeping and checked all my msgs.
she screwed ronald.
Lex says:
OMFG
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i had no idea she screwed u too.
i am so sorry.
Lex says:
so she saw the message tht you texted me
about lying to her
absolutely brilliant
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
no. i deleted that
Lex says:
ubt she knewwwww
lol
frankly speaking i wasnt surprised when she called
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
the same night i sent it to u.
Lex says:
and i was like 'yes maam. yes maam"
lol please.
she's not met my mother has she
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
omg. jo. i am so sorry.
Lex says:
haha no worries
i was worried about you
nah your mum tried to be strict
or sounded mean
but she couldnt pull it off
like seriously. she hasnt met my mum
haha
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she is driving me up a wall. i cn't stand it.
Lex says:
*hugs*
how did you manage to go online
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
fucked my sister over. mum's out so she has no one complain to.
i'll deal with my mum when she gets home.
Lex says:
sighs
so how long you under house arrest for
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
u know i had to email my resignation in secret!
Lex says:
so she doesnt know that youve had sex BEFORE
omg
lol
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
hell no.
Lex says:
patutla she reacted like that
you ah
be more careful next time can or not
i dont have ahmed's number btw
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
but my amazin g sis old her all abt my lil escapades with my exes in the sauna!
*sighs*
nevermind.
Lex says:
what
hahahahha
okay
how did you manage to go online now
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
sister is in front of telly. so i am free to use laptop till mum comes home.
Lex says:
lol
ok
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i can't contct anyone! fucking sucks. can't even runaway from home.
Lex says:
if she throws the laptop away
i dont know ah
+_+
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
haha! her loss.. i'll just rot in front of the telly.
Lex says:
lol
ok
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i'm really sorry jo. i had no idea that she screwed u too.
Lex said (1:27 PM):
no worries

I am still the same person.
I still do things for all the right reasons.
Only difference now is that i give you less control over my life.
But you know your way around me.

i don't know anything right now. i am so messed up. i have no one to turn to. family doesn't feel like family and home feels like prison. i cn't escape. my only choice is suicide. and i am too chicken to do that.
judgemental faces and wicked stares. i cn't take it. i cn't escape it. it sucked when my mum said u spilled on me. i trusted u.

DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
hey
^^
hows ronald?
xd
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
why'd u tell my mum..
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
huh?
wth!
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she told me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wad did u say
=.=
i*
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she said that u were right abt me. that my mum should be worried abt me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
oh god wtf?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she threw my phone. put me under hse arrest. screwed ronald and made me quit my job
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wtf la weh..
i didnt say anything also
i think im not that stupid to put myself into something like this.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
and jac laughed at me.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
hmm
tough
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
tough understatement.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wad happened to make this all appear anyways?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she said it was u.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
it was me?
=.=
why is it me?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
thats why i don't know whether to trust u at all.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
huh..
erm
okay?
let me clearily that
i didnt say anything.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
not even to jac

DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
i said to jacq that i am worried for u.
dats all.
i dont know wad the fuck they twisted the story to.
but i mean
i dont take sides.
when have i ever when it came to your family?
if you think boycotting you was my plan. then...i guess so dont know me well enuff to noe i treat u and ur fam as my own.
i guess so= i guess you*
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i don't know anything right now. i am so messed up. i have no one to turn to. family doesn't feel like family and home feels like prison. i cn't escape. my only choice is suicide. and i am too chicken to do that.
judgemental faces and wicked stares. i cn't take it. i cn't escape it. it sucked when my mum said u spilled on me. i trusted u.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
fuck that!
do you believe dat?
if you do.
den i dont have anything to say.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
if i didnt trust u. would i say all this to u.
u have always been like a sister to me. more than jacq. thats why it sucked when my mother said that u had something to do with all this.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
you're mom
haih
i admit
that i did say something.
it wasnt even saying
i just asked
if she trusted you.
she said no
so i said..
if u dont trust her..
wad she does wont be a part of ur life anymore
and thats how i asked her to worry abt u
kinda la
i dont exactly remember the convo.
but thats how it went...
see its not like i said anything to make her check ur hp or anything!
i know she did because ur hp is gone and obviously she checked.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
obviously.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
i noe her too well.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i don't know what to do.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
im sorry if wad i said is wad caused this..but be well noted that jacq has been wrapping ur mom around doubts abt u
why did she suddenly throw away ur hp
wad did she find out?
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
that i was looking for birth control pills.
she doesn't know i had sex last week. she thinks i'm planning on it.
she called me a slut. cheap. whore.
and jacq was laughing and had this smirk on her face.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well wtf were you doing having sex in the 1st place
i thought that was all by gones!
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
u know me. it happens. but this time i wasn't protected. so i freaked and went on a rampage for birth control pills
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
wtf happened.
who?
with who.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
a guy i was dating in college. Nasser.
now thats history.
jacq told her abt sam.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
sam? who's sam
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
the minor i supposedly raped in the sauna.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
oh!
ok
i can understand ur position
i wish i could help
but i dont think it would do much
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
don't help.
i'm dealing.
i finally expressed emotions while chatting with u.
i stoned throughout the whole day. in denial. searching every nook for pieces of my phone.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
ur mom sold ur hp already
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
hoping that all this was just some fucked up dream
how do u know
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
she threw the sim off the balcony
erm
wel
dont spill
but
jacq and i were at ap.
and she told me
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
she had no right.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well.
i dont noe la.
it was too late..
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i shouldn't have paid for astro.
i had to email my resignation and apologies to everyone in the office.
she doesn't know that.
she doesn't even care abt what i deal with.
all that matters to her is how my actions reflect on her.
DOUBLE CLICK [c=12]HERE[/c]. says:
well
for one
you cant blame her fully.
Anya {* Dark Skies , Black Roses and a stake through the heart sounds like bliss...* } says:
i am not. i just can't deal with this anymore.
since highschool.
how much do u think i cn take


i'll tell you how much.
no more.
i've just about had it.

Leave me be.

I can't deal with you anymore.

I don't want to.

WHAT IS UP MAN?

gahhh...

so many things are happpening...

damn fucking annoying at times...

also damn flattering..

the guys that i fancy are either too busy or taken...

the guys that fancy me are wayyy too free...

therefore they bug me 24/7...

i've even reached a point where i just don't answer their calls nor bother replying their msgs..

gahhhh....

i like the attention...

makes me feel empowered...

but what i HATE is the fact that i've resorted too smoking and i actually like it...

it entirely contradicts everything i stand for...

but it gives me a high and clearness of mind that is just so gratifying...

at least i'm not a HEAVY smoker...

and my apetite has lessen..

and i make friends..

but i loose just as much for the same reason...

haihhssss...


I LOVE THAT THEY CARE...
but may be they care a lil too much...


haiyoooo.....



I miss a lot of people...

but what to do..

no time...

can't afford to NOT go to work..

need the money to MOVE OUT!!

mother is becoming impossible..

sister is just plain ridiculous...

i've just had it la...

fed up of apologising for nothing...

tired of petty disputes..

just enough of it all...



Feeling like i'm on the road towards self destruction...


can't hurt myself...

but rather poison self to death...

slowly but certain death...

gahhhhh!!!

hate this feeling~

really HATE this....

=(


Jokes on me man....

tried playing it cool...

failed miserably...

fall for someone so easily...

when it falls apart, i break...

gahhhh!!

SMOKING~

my release...

haihss...

can't screw friends for smoking anymore...

haihss....


=.=''