WHAT IS UP MAN?

gahhh...

so many things are happpening...

damn fucking annoying at times...

also damn flattering..

the guys that i fancy are either too busy or taken...

the guys that fancy me are wayyy too free...

therefore they bug me 24/7...

i've even reached a point where i just don't answer their calls nor bother replying their msgs..

gahhhh....

i like the attention...

makes me feel empowered...

but what i HATE is the fact that i've resorted too smoking and i actually like it...

it entirely contradicts everything i stand for...

but it gives me a high and clearness of mind that is just so gratifying...

at least i'm not a HEAVY smoker...

and my apetite has lessen..

and i make friends..

but i loose just as much for the same reason...

haihhssss...


I LOVE THAT THEY CARE...
but may be they care a lil too much...


haiyoooo.....



I miss a lot of people...

but what to do..

no time...

can't afford to NOT go to work..

need the money to MOVE OUT!!

mother is becoming impossible..

sister is just plain ridiculous...

i've just had it la...

fed up of apologising for nothing...

tired of petty disputes..

just enough of it all...



Feeling like i'm on the road towards self destruction...


can't hurt myself...

but rather poison self to death...

slowly but certain death...

gahhhhh!!!

hate this feeling~

really HATE this....

=(


Jokes on me man....

tried playing it cool...

failed miserably...

fall for someone so easily...

when it falls apart, i break...

gahhhh!!

SMOKING~

my release...

haihss...

can't screw friends for smoking anymore...

haihss....


=.=''