Insecurity Complexes..
I figured that this is my main reason.
(as usual finding excuses)
I've always been insecure about myself..
Only just recently have i developed a backbone thus inducing unexplainable amounts of self esteem...
*grinss*
And due to my complexes, i have made myself prone to danger..
Not life threatening danger...
More like emotional hurt kinda danger..
I try to prove a point...
and when i exceed my own expectations...
Its gratifying...
but when i don't...
Its down right depressing..
I subject myself to unnecessary hurt..
thinking that no one else is affected in the process...
a terrible misconception...
I am involved in something where i am hell bent on trying to prove a point to myself and to other the party.
I shouldn't have to prove a point..
but yet i intend to..
made it a life mission to prove to the entire male species that i am not afraid of their little dares..
if anything...
I could top them anyday.
yet..
i still try to prove a point..
maybe i am just clinically insane in a sense..
obsessed..
deranged...
gahh...
hormonal maybe?
from what i know about myself...
i am quite lustful...
constantly needy for physical pleasure...
sin...
oh sin...
why do u feel so good...
