I'm not the kind of person to hate...
as a matter of fact... people who know me know that i do not have an ounce of hate in me...
just dissapointment,frustration and pain...
late last year, my mom sis and i were reunited with my dad's side of my family...
at the time it sounded great and so it seemed as well...
i was with my godmother, grandmother and papa...
we were happy to some extent but ugly cn't be hidden forever...
so recently all their uglies revealed themselves when they slowly heartlessly murdered my papa...
they neglected him, they couldn't give a rat's ass about him...
he was sick and they left him for dead...
he went hipo and in to a koma...
it was so depressing because one week before all these happened he was in IJN telling us how happy he was to be hospitalised because there he is fed!!!
how sad is that when an elderly man takes comfort in a hospital instead of his own home...
unfortunately at that time my mother was financially incapable to take him in so we couldn't do much...
but we did our best by bringing food to him as much as we could...
but it wasn't enough...
he died on 11/12/08...
he went home one week before...
they killed him...







the entire ordeal was too much for me...
but despite all that i still wanted to do his eulogy because i knew he would've wanted me to...
but again they striked....
they replaced both my sis and i with a powerpoint!!!
it was heartbreaking especially for my sis....
she actuallly went up to his potrait and said her peace....
it rained as the hearst was brought in....
my mum said it meant that a good man has passed...
it was so beautiful in that sense....
so many people came to pay their respects...
he was a good man...
i remember how cute he was...
i miss him so much....
i love my papa....



i am angry with those people called family of mine that didn't give me the chance to say my goodbyes to him properly...

i am not sure that i cn forgive them for that....



what i do know is.... i will miss my papa so much....





and those people will no longer be apart of our lives....



we gave them a chance and they did was try to drag us in to hell....





and thats that....