its hard not to seem desperate when u are so smitten with someone..
being absolutely in love and trying to deny it, is an absolute waste of time..
I am in love...
but i must deny it from the one i love....
i think abt her every second of every day..
i am forever missing the scent of her...
i close my eyes and hope to see her in front of me..
but its all fool's hope...
because being her friend...
i know exactly what goes on in her mind..
who is on her mind constantly...
and who isn't...
i miss her so much sometimes.. i cnt even breathe when i think abt her...
i try not to think abt her but i some how always hv a reason to..
i hate tht i love her so...
shes got such a hold on me and she doesnt even know it...
she made me promise to become a better person...
for her...
i'm willing to do anything..
no matter all the sacrifices i'll have to make..
a friend asked me...
"what if after all the changes.. her feelings for me stay the same"
i said...
i guess i'll just hv to live with tht because love cn't be forced...
as long as i cn love her in secret... i'm happy...
i won't say it wouldnt hurt me..
of course it would..
but theres nothing i cn do abt it...
thts true love...
loving someone despite all odds...
even spiritual odds and society...



never thought i would end up being BI..
men are the only ones to be blamed for this...
Ass holes...